My Life is my message--My message is my life...

Haven't written in a while. As I told my hubby, Mikey...I am not like him that can write like its bathing or brushing your teeth. I have mood swings when it comes to my writing. And I write when I feel like it. Its not like making a song. I can do that on the spot when the need calls for it. I dont have to go up a mountain or have a quiet moment to put a song together. I just start composing like its brushing my teeth!

I am back at my mother church. I was serving in the San Fernando Valley church for sometime and it has been two weeks that I have been back. I am home. Its very interesting to see how my walk as a Christian has grown tremendously again since my coming back to the church even though its been only two weeks! I just feel more Holy Spirit presence and burning at the mother church. I feel a rejuvenation in my soul. A reconnection to the source. I know that this is where the Lord wants me to be.

Its only been two Sundays that Ive been back and alreadly He is putting me to work. He doesnt waste any time. The head of the Praise team was already at my house early yesterday morning, breaking me into the routine. Getting to know me and what direction I want to take with my life. It is very exciting to me. I think I have never been more ready to start serving the Lord.
Of course this means I need to look at myself and empty it of all the trash (again and again and again)...as usual. Whats new? hehehe

The sermon last Sunday of our guest speaker, Pastor Babes Paulate- head of the international organization, hit home with a bolt of lightning that brought me tears of revelation.

My life is my message...my message is my life...

So simple yet so profound. So softly spoken yet brutally frank that it felt like a dagger piercing through my heart. Have my day to day choices reflected a life that would be pleasing to the Father? Can my actions speak for what I stand for, my beliefs, my convictions? I would say, NOT!!! Not at all....Ouch! That ONE sentence made me think hard and deep---another paradigm shift for me. My life has NOT been a good example for others. If I were to look at my life as my message, Im DEFINITELY sending the WRONG message to the world!!! A message of compromise. A message that its okay to waver between right and wrong. A message that seesaws between good and eveil. A message that plays on the fence. A message--- THAT WILL CAUSE OTHERS TO STUMBLE. Double ouch!! I think my responsiblity in God's kingdom is more difficult than other xtians. I have been planted in the secular world. I know that my work will be mostly with unbelievers, winning them over to the kingdom side. I need to be strong in my faith and convictions if I want to succeed. I need my armour and battle gear.

Thank God for restoration. Thank God, for His Grace and Mercy and His Son Jesus Christ! Because even though I am weak, I am strong (in Him)...I am poor but I am rich (in Him)...because of what He has done for me and in me!

Every Thursday now is Praise and Worship fellowship. And every Saturday morning is practice at the church. This will definitely keep me in the line of fire all weekwith the proper armory to wage the war. It will keep me grounded and thats what I need because Im such a free spirit. Im looking forward to our sessions and relationship building! Im looking forward to getting to know Him more and His will in my life. I know that this was the missing link for him to start pouring the uncontainable blessings that He has waiting for me already! I can't wait to get them! I know in my heart that once I've emptied myself of the spirit of compromise, He will start blessing me and my family....you just watch! I'll keep you posted! Amen to that!